Oct 18 2014
I cannot hate you. No matter what happens, I still don’t regret choosing you. Even if I had a second chance to pick again, I would always choose you.
I wondered if you deleted all the apps we use together, since I couldn’t do it. I don’t know what My Day and Lovebyte is counting for anymore.
Seth, I can never tell you enough how much I love you. And I’m so done now since I don’t have a chance anymore.
Today I went to the Bonfire and Homecoming king/queen crowning, then Fireworks, and Towerlights. I was having too much fun til I realized, I was alone. I didn’t mind being alone before because I always knew I had you. But now, but not now. I saw people hugging, holding hands and kissing while watching fireworks blew up; I caught myself remembering the time you were holding me while fireworks lighted up Chicago’s sky. These fireworks here are way better than the ones we saw in front of that ferris wheel let me tell ya; but the feelings I had with you, it is irreplacable.
I don’t want anyone else. I don’t want to have new feelings. I don’t want to do that. I want to see you, to be with you.
I wonder if your heart breaks like mine. I wonder if the image of my face ever flash up in your mind.
I love you, the most, within every other boys in this world.
I cannot hate you, Anh.